Was busy all of last week and part of this week so i didn’t have any time to write here in my blog. So what was I doing? Facing the inevitable…applying for a job!
Finances are really tight at the moment and while I’ve found lots of site that helps me look for ways to make money on line, I haven’t made any money yet cause for the most part of it I’m still at the learning stage. So while part of me is looking forward to working again the other part is already feeling guilty about not being always available for the kids. I mean they know Mummy goes to the office in the afternoon but whenever I’m needed at home I had the choice of not going to the office and just working from home. But as our business is kinda at a slump at the mo so that’s why am looking for a job. Never been afraid of hard work it’s just the guilt part that’s killing me! It’s the usual dilemma for most moms out there – to work or not to work? That is the age-old-question. But is there really any good answer to that question. And how come men never have to worry about this question?! I asked my hubby one night, if I were to become filthy rich all of a sudden would he feel threatened by me? Would he quit his job and stay home with the kids? Amazingly enough he said “NO!” to the first question and “YES!” to the second. While we women do struggle with wanting to juggle being a career woman and super mom and wife at the same time, some men, like my hubby, would actually welcome the chance to stay home with the kids and have the time to send them to school, help them with homework and play with them because they do get really tired of going to work everyday and not having enough time for the family.(Ok wait! What about housework, you say? Well, my hubby is still a man after all and he’d only be willing to be a stay-at-home dad if we have a maid to help with the housework!!!). The guilt gets to them too but I don’t think it’s as bad for them as it is for we women because it is in us to always want to nurture, protect, guide and everything else that we Mommies do!
I haven’t told my hubby yet that I’ve applied for a job. I’ll cross that bridge when they call me for the interview! But for now, am already silently suffering with my decision which caused me a sleepless night last night…


